sinner

miss besfren,
did u noticed that evening?
while u were doing ur things at the kitchen,
i was staring at the tv screen,
captivated though nothing was on.
i was looking for u.
i was watching ur reflection.

prayer

something 'poke' my heart today.
i cannot not be who i am.
but i can choose not to act on it.

notty

efilrufosdnocesytrihtdetsawunoitalutargnocdnaedoctercesaevahotloocstiknihti

go figure!
*lol*

nutcase

when other people would say
'ouch, it hurts' etc
i would say
'that hurts. if u hold still it wudn't hurt as much. if u didn't run away, this won't happened. if u didn't scare me, i wudn't run away. well u shudn't go to the west wing. well u shud control ur temper. now hold still, it might hurt a bit. by the way, thank you for saving my life.'

simple.

no more mr nice guy

making the rounds wearing my cynical smirk
but does it makes anything I said less true?

stupid workload

i used to tell her,
'rasa macam nak selimut tebal-tebal, then mati perlahan-lahan'
we laughed
but that's exactly how i feel right now.
and i knw she feels the same.
lets do it besfren.

silent reader

that's what besfren called herself.
though i discreetly keeping this blog from her, she found it.
promised to act like she has no idea. and made me vow to never put an end to this one.
coz i did it twice before.
day one, she left her comment.
deleted.
then she made some remarks when she saw me wearing my anti-smoking shirt.
hush i said.
today she asked ' what's wif aerlon?'
now she owes me a gift as the exchange for those infos.
i guess she's not that silent after all.
i knew it all along.
and i still love her for that.

confession

that girl annoys the hell out of me.
please tell her,
no one's trying to steal her limelight.
she didn't even have one at the first place.

evil

when x text me the other day, i had to fight the urge to curse.
i was mad. furious.
x said 'i'll be there for you'
for what? wat u gona do?
force me to accept all those abuses again?
convinced me it's a present life reflection of the unwholesome karma created in my past?
then act traumatized and play victim to hide your cowardness?
i don't simply hate u. i detest u, intensely.
hey,wait.
when someone call your sister BITCH, u come and tell me that again.

simple math

'wat do u expect from a relationship?' so i asked
'tak untung takpa, jangan rugi' she told me
of course, she's half chinese.